11-25-18
I don’t know the last time i posted was, but what I do know is that it hasn’t been in months or even years. It isn’t healthy, but here I am at exactly 3:22 AM. I have been drinking, but here I am having another. I will be 23 next month and I know this ‘blog’ is a mess, and I know i have expressed hard times in my life, but this last month has been a rough one. I have been struggling with new difficulties and learning new things, but I have also been struggling with things from years ago. Old habits die HARD, old everything dies hard actually. I wish I was brave enough to post what I have actually been thinking, but I’m not. I can put it very vaguely though. Old relationships, not only romantic ones, but also friendships. I miss my high school years. My friends, my boyfriend at the time, my family, and my life. I thought it was extremely hard. (to put it mildly) But now it is so much more difficult. I have no ambition, I feel like I’m running out of love and time, I feel very very lost in who I am I also feel very lost in life right now I don’t know how to put it, but I hope i can continue to post how i think/feel so I can have somthing to look back on and reflect on.
gwen stefani was right when she said this shit is bananas
(via teenagerposts)
